Wholeness to all!
I have been on the board for a few months now (which might I add is the best source of information I have ever come across in one place!), but I am not an "active" member per say, as I don't generally post anything. I read and watch the content over and over, among other things I am studying, but I have to say that this website alone has taken me to places that probably would have taken me years upon years to get to! So for that, I thank you all for everything everyone has contributed here!
I need some advice or help with attaining more lucidity when dreaming or even astral traveling. I have never fully projected yet though, but I have been trying for over a year and I have studied and read so many books on the subject, that I am starting to feel that I may be missing something or perhaps doing something that is holding me back? Over the past year that I have been trying to project, I have had two instances (very far apart from one another) where I think I may have been projecting, but the moment I realized what was going on, I got too excited and gained full consciousness and lost the sensations. Both times though, I felt as if my entire body was vibrating in a way I've never experienced, and i felt a slight tug or pulling before I got too worked up and basically woke my self up.
Now, since the end of January of 2013, I have taken matters to the next level. I have completely stopped eating any meat (not that i really consumed a lot to begin with..) then stopped eating any animal products and "fake" foods such as anything from restaurants or fast food joints. I limit my intake of processed or non organic foods as much as possible, but it's very hard to do living in Toronto, where winter doesn't allow for many locally grown foods, let alone organic. Lately though for the last couple months, i have found that i cannot achieve lucidity, I haven't had an instance where I am lucid or even aware that I am dreaming and maybe not controlling the dream to a certain degree. It's like something happened ever since I changed my diet.
Here is a list of what i eat on a day to day basis. It's pretty consistent for the most part, but the point with this "meal plan" is to show what types of processed or non organic foods I do eat. Most fruits and veggies, although organic, are imported from various places like USA, Mexico, Columbia and Chilli. Very little is locally grown, especially in the winter months, especially for organic produce.
Breakfast:
- Organic fair trade coffee beans, which i grind my self
- Organic almond milk (some ingredients in it sound non organic to me though with added vitamins and minerals, perhaps this may be the culprit as i use it in my coffee and smoothies daily. I go through 1 to 1.5 boxes a week (946ml each box)
- organic and no preservative toast/bread with all sorts of nuts and grains on the crust, 2 slices a day
- organic and vegan pomegranate jam
- Vegan butter made from flax, soy and other nut oils (i may have a couple table spoons of this a week or less)
- Organic frozen berries and fruits for smoothies
- avocados (organic and non organic, depends on whats available) , 5 a week
- organic bananas, 8-10 a week
- organic oatmeal, a bowl a day
Lunch:
- Veggies and fruits (varies every day/week depending on what i can get, 50/50 is organic and non organic)
- Organic salad mix with lemon juice, dehydrated cranberries, unsweetened coconut shavings, sea salt and pepper and olive oil (all ingredients for the dressing are non organic)
- mixed nuts (non organic bulk type)
- Dehydrated fruits that I make myself weekly with organic fruits
Dinner:
- Most of my dinners are stir fry, pasta, rice, salad type dishes, of course all vegetarian and vegan
- I use a lot of non organic olive oil in recipes
- non organic pasta, once every week or two ill have a pasta dinner with an olive oil type sauce or organic pasta sauce
- jasmine rice, non organic, 2-3 cups of rice every week or two
- more organic salad mix
- Veggies and fruit juice i make using my juicer, 80% is organic produce, the celery, kale, romaine lettuce and spinach are always non organic, they just don't carry it at the place i shop
- non organic spices and herbs that i use from my spice rack
- I do grown fresh herbs which are from an organic clone
- I grown my own organic potatoes, green onions and garlic, but the garlic is a seldom harvest, so otherwise a use a lot of garlic on a weekly basis, non organic
Snacks:
- bulk pop corn seeds
- my dehydrated fruits
- fresh fruits (mostly organic with the exception of Guavas, papaya, oranges)
- cherry tomatoes (non organic)
Aside from dried herbs, spices, almond milk, vegan butter, and the non organic produce listed above, there really is nothing else i consume that is processed or non organic.
From what I have gathered that has changed since i really have gone full tilt on this quest to actually project and be conscious of it, is perhaps the almond milk, butter, organic vegan jam or garlic that really has an effect on me? I haven't changed any of the products i use, (which i am consciously aware are bad) such as my hand lotions and shampoos and deodorant. I don't take any sort of medications or pills. I haven't had a sore throat or cough or any "cold" symptoms in over a year and a half when i discovered affirmations.
Prior to the diet change, I used to eat 4-5 eggs whites per day for breakfast, with typical off the shelf white bread, real and non organic butter, cream for my coffee, and I did consume probably a 6 pack of beer and/or a bottle of red wine per month and i would have some fish or shrimp once every other week and on rare and isolated occasions, I would have chicken or beef. I have had 2 glasses of red wine and 3 soda sized cans of beer since January until now, which were very spaced out instances, with no drunk or "buzzed" feeling at all. In 2008 i was on a complete raw diet for 1.5 years and did it cold turkey. At that time, I had no occult knowledge, except that I was drawn in by the idea of a healthy diet and going completely raw made a lot of sense to me, as was already a healthy minded individual. I felt greater than i have ever felt in my life and when i decided to stop eating raw only, I still felt great, healthy and energetic, but eating meat just felt wrong, but I eventually got sucked back into it, mind you, it wasn't comparable to what i was raised on, but I still did it, especially with fish and sea food in moderation.
Anyways, what can I do here to help me get my lucidity back and get my self to project? I have watched the astral quest videos, read numerous board postings and surfed the net or books and information on what to do and how to do it, but I just feel like I have lost connection since the diet change.
I don't have any vampires or leaches or anyone sucking my energy while awake or asleep ( i remember my dreams 9/10 times) and i don't have any fears of death, as i know where am i going when i pass from this physical body, but i need to be able to fully unlock with full control so I can gather my experiences with me when i pass, which i think most of the members are also trying to do...I feel like i've just come to a complete stop for some reason!
Any advice or help would be greatly appreciated !!
Wholeness!
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It's always good to say what you're feeling because then it seems you're never the only one! I think my main issue was getting too focused on the "goal" that I was falling behind and forcing it, which is totally contradictory to how it happens.
As far the skating in a half pipe goes, once upon a time I was where you are when I did skate...all I can say is just stomp your front foot down to the ground until you can't anymore when you're sitting your tail on the ledge of the pipe! Don't go half way, always just push down as far as possible to ensure you make it down safely! When coming up to ride the rail, go up further than what you think feels like the "right" time haha.
Wholeness!
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