for years and years ive seen through the matrix and wondered if my family and friends seen what ive seen or felt what i felt. knowing inside that somethings are different, somethings are not what it seems to be it has to be more to this than my social security,my bank account,my EGO oh my ego. out of all the people i met in my life time i consider myself the most stubborn of all. the guilt,anger and burden that i alone brought to myself wont be content. i trying not to drown in my past decision, im having a hard time coming into means with myself i find it hard to meditate,sleep,eat,etc. where do i begin to let go truly let GO.......