MARIA, I LEFT A MESSAGE ON ANOTHER WALL, SORRY, I DON'T REMEMBER WHERE BUT I WILL TRY TO REPEAT WHAT I SAID.  THE SPIRITUAL JOURNEY IS DEFINITELY ABOUT INFORMATION.  THE MORE YOU KNOW THE MORE YOU WANT TO KNOW.  BUT LIKE ANYTHING.  TALK IS CHEAP.  THAT IS THEORY WITHOUT PRACTICE DOESN'T WORK.  

FIND A GURU, IF YOU CAN'T OR WON'T THEN YOU NEED TO START READING ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING YOU CAN ABOUT KUNDALINI YOGA, START A REGULAR YOGA PRACTICE, AT LEAST FOUR OR MORE TIMES A WEEK, I AM PARTIAL TO ASHTANGA YOGA.  IT IS RIGOROUS BUT IT WILL RELEASE THE FASCIA  AND ALLOW RELAXATION TO PROCEED IN ALL POSTURES.  LOOK AND RICHARD FREEMAN ASHTANGA YOGA PRIMARY SERIES, DON'T GET DISCOURAGED, JUST KEEP PRACTICING.  IF YOU HAVE PHYSICAL PROBLEMS, THEN I SUGGEST YOU THINK ABOUT LOOKING INTO HATHA YOGA.  IF YOU ARE NOT ON A HEALTHY DIET START THINKING SERIOUSLY ABOUT ONE.  THERE IS A WEBB SITE, I THINK, BY THE BLIND GURU, TAKE A SERIOUS LOOK AT IT. INITIALLY READ, READ, READ, READ EVERYTHING YOU WILL SORT THRU THE DROSS LATER BUT YOU MUST KNOW EVERYTHING THAT IS AVAILABLE ABOUT IT ALL.  BUT DON'T COMMITT UNTIL YOU HAVE AN OPPORTUNITY TO REVIEW EVERYTHING.  WHEN YOU HAVE DONE THIS THEN HIT ME BACK, THAT IS YOU CAN GET BY THE BABY STEPS.  I DO NOT KNOW WHO YOU ARE OR WHAT YOUR CHARACTER IS.  BUT YOU SHOULD, IF YOU DON'T.  THEN YOU SHOULD TRY TO ACCESS YOUR STRENGTHS AND WEAKNESS AND YOU MUST BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF.