Sleep is something I dont do very often and not very deeply.  I walk the dream realms but I have no dreams of my own.

I just seem to join in others dreams.

So in the past week I have been so tired but sleep is as elusive and the loghness monster.  I have taught myself to go into a meditative state, then go Out of body and stay in the realms all night, 2 hours before dawn I would return and put myself into a state of restful sleep for 2 hours.  This state is just above the dream realms.

I have been doing this for as long as I can remember, and its second nature.  I cant remember when was the last time I ever had sweet blisful sleep.

Mostly as I enter the dream state ( I have tried) I get hit by vision upon vision. Then I would pull myself out into that meditative state, and go off on a journey.

So this weekend I decises to try for some real sleep, go past the dream state into that state of nothing, where there is no visions, no nothing, its like a void.  It bring a stillness that is peaceful, there I can actually sleep.

So I did it last night and got 5 beautiful hours of stillness and rest.  Which was heaven.

As I realised it was time to wake up, I started drawing me back from there, slowly savoring the feeling of restfulness.

Then I hit something I dont quite remeber it was like a past life flashing so fast that I gould barely grasp it.  So I pushed past it, into semmy awake.  As I did that, I heard the words:

Honest to God I'll break your heart.. Tear you to pieces and rip you apart...

I was confused...but the alarm went off and it was time to get up for work.  In the car I have a random selection of CD's that I made from my randome downloaded music fro Itunes.  So I aded a new CD and set of....

And what was playing... this: