Here is one for the book I am writing :)

Friday April 6th 2012

Mirrors = Anything that reflects me in others 

Under the law of grace I became empty. After asking for angelic assistance and surrendering the last ego desires I had, to the hands of the higher selves mind and infinite completely, I was on a roll with dreams last night/this morning. Every few hours I’d wake up with another, the moon’s energy was nearly at its fullest peak which allowed for so much clarity. I only missed not writing one down, but 3 I got in full text, here is the last question I have, perhaps my reason or one reason for being here at all:

How can something that can create anything to experience, feel separated from what it creates or in more simple terms, feel separate from itself? - Your insights welcome

I experienced trying to join in with team sports, but feeling rejected by the mirrors of reactions I judged in people, never able to fit in with the external things I had experienced (mirrors of self). I experienced sitting watching american football practice, with someone missing a kick because the one holding the ball wasn’t picturing where it should go for the kicker, through the back of his mind. I left because I wasn't on the team, and couldn't picture a way in from my mirrors.

I experienced sitting watching children at martial arts, as they bounced across mats at an old gym hall I used to visit, literally flying through the movements. It was a very serious event, showed to me by the glances of others. I had to leave as I didn’t fit in with the deep concentration and discipline required to maintain my place there. Again my mirrors shattering a sense of belonging.

I experienced children stealing my luggage as I had made up my mind to leave the leisure center, where many of my intense childhood experiences were. At first I played along with them, but then felt as if I didn’t fit in with that reflection of innocent play either. One tried to convince me to go to university that it wasn’t too late to go with the other adults, the more he asked, the more reasons I started –inventing-, manifesting etc not to go with them.

This was all very vivid, with several smaller experiences of the same theme. Eventually I put my shoes on to leave, walking the wrong way out to the swimming bath itself, an attendant ran from where I had come and said, did you leave these muddy footprints everywhere? I said it could be me yes.

She took me backwards a bit, then down a dark looking spiral staircase (golden mean/time/dimensions) into a ball shaped small white room with thick walls. I thought we were going quite deep. Though it was light and fairly neutrally painted/lit, I said I thought you were taking me to a dungeon! to the lady, she laughed and handed me something to clean my shoes, replying no, just to clean your shoes.

I turned over my right foot (I think right, indicating perhaps emotions, right brain, the unknown universe etc), and had to unfold the shoe. What I was wearing down here on my foot was much bigger, I was surprised I could walk in it. The shoe was also different colors within the black, green mostly, but some yellow and red marks. Where before I had worn a white shoe, with black marks, what I usually wear to exercise. I had to unfold the shoe to start to clean the mud off the soul, it was coming off in lumps. Then I woke up.

How much more symbolism can you get than that. Unfold the SOUL, of the foot, a very important point, to clean the dirt so I didn’t smudge it everywhere I was walking. I woke up excited but even when I had taken a moment, later in the day the message was still the same feeling. The other message I heard loud and clear, feeling compelled to write down was:

You are living in a period of creation with the speaker, have confidence in that, not your unity. – You might think this negative at first glance, but turn any negative to a reflected positive on the dual plane what do you have? Not your unity with the material author i was reading? Not yet your unity inside yourself? More questions :), but I have learned to let go of the need to know everything right now, and will put it in the hands of my higher self, sending the heartfelt want to know, then knowing it will be brought to me via the laws of attraction.

Everything is inverted by the standard vision before its read by the eyes.

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2 Other previous dreams to this setting the stage, went along the same theme, but with different settings, I’ll sum them up briefly as they go on for pages.

A group dream of living together socially with others. We had one outing that went well, but then for the next I just had to do one more thing before I was ready to go, then one more thing, stalling a bit, by the time I got there they had already gone. This built the illusion resentment where there was none, with several settings from my early childhood the base for these interactions of separation, (but lived as an adult). In another dream I had a dream of a university party. In the first year,  I was getting used to the experience, the second year party that followed I tried to disguise myself as something I was not to those coming, they all looked darker too, clothing, size, manner. After slowly losing my disguise bit by bit, I met an old childhood friend who shared something in common with my previous spiritual life of witchcraft (in the dream). We left for a different event, sitting down at a large long table of celtic/gothic origin, that is where I was washed cleaned by a huge dog licking the make up left that hid who I was. The head man at the table of people, of whom all felt very imposing, large presences, said the loud words.

This is a council orientated dog, let him wash you clean.

Before that the one I didn’t write down, the earliest dream, was about planetary alignments. I only got fragments because I waited to write after waking up the second time. This dream focused around large clusters of stars at a distance in slightly fluid looking space, slowly coming together or playing out their cycles. Some actually had seeds in them, and were connected by a large gigantic root across the stars tying them together in a small green seedling. I did notice this seemed to be growing, and as the cycles went through, so did its size.

Now I know when another dream is there, as I will hear a certain type of soft yawn, and if I want the dream I can fall asleep to it.

Happy journeys all, you can start having this clarity just as I did, from no dreams – to nightmares – to inspiration and lessons to change your waking world. Stay with it :), raise your frequency, have trust in yourself.

WBV