After tuning into a video a few days ago: “Alan-watt-the-reptilian-deception” -  I couldn't help but to reflect and ponder over my own existence, and all the factors that have been put into place  that have influenced my way of thinking; and ultimately my way of living.


Bare with me here as I attempt to articulate my thoughts in a somewhat orderly fashion!

We hear about how the veil is thinning, and more and more of us are experiencing life through different eyes; or rather (opened eyes). But how much of this is determined by our thoughts and what we choose to believe?


Last night, I was taken back to a period in time, which I now have connected its meaning. In 2008, after picking up a book by Carolyn Myss (I think that's the spelling); and then a few others of hers thereafter; my consciousness began to expand in areas that I could not decipher at that time.  I started to remember my dreams; and a few of them were quite profound.  Of course, I did not know this back then as much of my attention was not given to them.


I never felt so more alive.  It is during this time also that I was still attending church (once or twice a month), and what I was experiencing was nothing that was even mentioned amongst people I knew who attended this church; not even in casual conversations.  On a few occasions where we would have social gatherings, I would slip in some of my thoughts regarding spirituality, and the dreams that I was having. Sure enough, I would get these looks like if I am crazy; I was even told that I may have a vitamin deficiency.


As time went on, and my focus was taken away from anything that dealt with inner growth or experiences, I found that I was not remembering my dreams; I was not astral projecting, and fell back into being encircled by everything external - the latest music playing; what was popular on TV etc. I like to refer to this period in time as; my life as a zombie!


It was like I got a glimpse of myself, and then; just like that I disappeared again; only to live my life by what I saw and heard; just accepting everything because everybody saw it as how it is suppose to be: I basically stepped back into the line up.


I think that many people are waking up and questioning their existence, but they get to that point where they do realize that..... OMG... everything that I automatically accepted to be the way and the only way has all been made up - what now? They find themselves at the crossroad - weighing the pros and cons of living an authentic life.


Some people would rather live in denial because they think it is easier - why rock the boat. They rather be guided by the other boats ahead of them, which are also being led down the stream by current of the water. Coming to shore and taking stock of the actual conditions ahead, may very well  provide a better view of why you were being led down one path - a path you chose because everybody before you did.


Pardon my ramble... but getting back to my initial question:

How much of what you are able to see and understand is based on your ability to let go of beliefs that you know only serve to entrap you?

Temperature wise - are you hot or cold?

Are you having a lukewarm existence; and what would it take for you to jump through the fire?

... I'm posting this, in hopes of opening discussion for anyone who is finding them self stuck - sometimes we may have all the answers, and all that is needed to become 'unstuck'  is the opportunity given to be heard. No two people are alike!

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Yes, I think we all get stuck during the awakening phases. How connected you are in the material or physical is going to dictate how much you struggle. How fast you can let go of old concepts plays role too. I have never been good at letting go of things especially when they are the building blocks of my foundation. The good thing for me is that I never fully brought into religion. I simply took the GOD concept and worked it in a fashion that worked for me. So to consider all the things I'm learning now through my spiritual journey is right on target for me. That's not to say its easy. Despite everything that I discussed I still am filtering and decoding and getting better at letting go of the concepts that don't align with the truth. I am going to venture out and say; expressing your thoughts on spirituality in church or to someone that is religious may not yield the open minded discussions you are seeking. Maybe you should consider changing your audience or collaborators with open minded individuals. Also stay strong and continue to question things as you see fit. Do not become deterred by naysayers. The worse thing that can happen from you questioning your existence is that you'll get an answer! Lol! Hope this helps.

Oh it has been a few years now Tamara that I let it all go - in fact I don't think there ever was a time I even held unto any of those beliefs; but growing up as a child, I had no choice but to join the flock every Sunday. But for many years, I was living on the edge of it all; in limbo!

I think the reason why this was brought to my attention recently, was to remind others that we are living in the 'information age." There is no excuse! And even better, we have networks such as this one where members can interact - a meeting of the minds!

At the time, I had no one to bounce off my ideas off, or how I actually viewed the world. A few years back when I started to delve into information on the net; started exploring topics; theories etc;  have you ever seen the look on a kid's face after receiving a toy that they had their eyes on for the longest time?  Well, that was me! It's easy to take things for granted - and information / knowledge is the best gift one can be given!

I hold much respect and appreciation for individuals like Sevan Bomar, who have stepped into this matrix with one goal in mind - to aid us in 'stepping out of it."

Wholeness Neil!

Based on your experience(s), is there a way to counter-act or reverse the effects caused by  these prevailing sound frequencies e.g. a person bombarded by the ringing in the ears (to put it mildly).  Is there some kind of sound therapy?

Not sure if this was mentioned (ringing of ears) within the context you posted above or from the link you provided, as I have been going through the info there as well!

Thank you Neil for going the extra yard in pulling this up!  I believed I had ran across this blog last night during my search, and somehow I had failed to notice the sub-title enclosed in brackets; I just glanced at the concoction listed and didn't make the connection (one of those nights lol).

Thanks again! 

Nothing is like experience and reaching an higher conciseness, unfortunately others around may not understand or could relate other wise, that's why im grateful to be able to go to a sute like this one for answers, I feel the same way, no your not crazy,your seeing things different from before, your eyes are now open, and that's a good thing....
Ok so what really depresses me and has me stuck at the moment is this link i read, read it if you want. It basically states that nothing is real. But in a way that my mind cannot handle. It says that we are nothing but awareness. Light, soul, spirituality all falls under the same category that the "luciferian group entity" spoke. In the beginning was the word and you know the rest. So apparently the word was light. Bam! Then we have existence. The guy that provided the link goes as far to say its best to die and that suicide is ok because we will always be trapped in the veil as long as we have our 5 senses. To me thats messed up. He said theres no such thing as anything. Well how does this "egregore" create. Who created it? Ever since reading this info i have been depressed. It says "home" is just pure awareness. Light is corruptable no matter what. So what do we do? Can you imagine i find joy and my mind tells me its false and pointless?!!! No such thing as matter, vibration, or energy. Thats frustrates me soo much, i wish i never read it. Can anyone enlighten me on this "nothingness"?


may you have success on this journey

For nothingness, not much can be done. The beacon or the way (Tao) can be pointed towards but it is difficult for the mind to grasp as it first must be still. 

The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao

---Dao De Jing 道德經: 道 

Laozi (or Lao Tzu, "Old Master")


Furthermore, you may use deduction and trace the root and go down the rabbit hole. Be brave warrior, willing to investigate the nature of who you are. You may start with pondering existence itself.

There are no causes with conditions; there are no causes without conditions. There are no conditions without causes; there are no conditions with causes.

--- Mūlamadhyamakakārikā[1] (Devanagari: मूलमध्यमककारिका), or Fundamental Verses on the Middle Way

composed by:

Nāgārjuna (Devanagari: नागार्जुन, Telugu: నాగార్జున, Tibetan: ཀླུ་སྒྲུབ་ klu sgrub, Chinese: 龍樹, Japanese: 龍樹 RyūjuSinhala නාගර්ජුන)


One more before the mind drops off! Investigate the one who asks the question. Who is it that wants to know about nothingness?

D: How is one to enquire: “Who am I?”
M: Actions such as ‘going’ and ‘coming’ belong only to the body. And so, when one says “I
went, I came”, it amounts to saying that the body is “I”. But, can the body be said to be the
consciousness “I”, since the body was not before it was born, is made up of the five elements,
is non-existent in the state of deep sleep, and becomes a corpse when dead? Can this body
which is inert like a log of wood be said to shine as “I” “I”? Therefore, the “I” consciousness
which at first arises in respect of the body is referred to variously as self-conceit (tarbodham),
egoity (ahankara), nescience (avidya), maya, impurity (mala), and individual soul (jiva) . Can
we remain without enquiring into this? Is it not for our redemption through enquiry that all the
scriptures declare that the destruction of “self-conceit” is release (mukti)? Therefore, making
the corpse-body remain as a corpse, and not even uttering the word “I”, one should enquire
keenly thus: “Now, what is it that rises as ‘I’”. Then, there would shine in the Heart a kind of
wordless illumination of the form ‘I’ ‘I’. That is, there would shine of its own accord the pure
consciousness which is unlimited and one, the limited and the many thoughts having disappeared.
If one remains quiescent without abandoning that (experience), the egoity, the individual sense,
of the form ‘I am the body’ will be totally destroyed, and at the end the final thought, viz. the ‘I’-
form also will be quenched like the fire that burns camphor.1 The great sages and scriptures
declare that this alone is release.


---Composed by Ramana Maharshi (1879–1950)

Links to the texts that have been cited in this post have been attached below ------------->

I hear taoism is the way to go. I had a friend who studied it. Said his life was smooth as ever


Apparently that link you provided does not exist any longer.

When was the last time you tuned into one of the 'Astral Quest' episodes? Most of us have probably seen them all.  Just like the case with reading literature; sometimes the same book that you picked up a few years back and revisit presently, can surprisingly take on a whole new (clearer) meaning.

I actually tuned into "what is Astral quest' just today, after viewing it a while back. I think it's being featured on the on the homepage; and of course, you can always head over to

Here's another one within the Astral quest series - not sure which episode or season it's from (October 30-2012) entitled "Ascension Techniques"  which I think might be very insightful at the moment. I'm extracting it form youtube: (have a listen primarily at 19:30, where Sevan deals with the topic of energy: if you're not going to listen to the complete video);


Also, a few months ago, I came across a video by 'Mooji" entitled "There's No Room For Two - Satsang with self - you can probably find the video on youtube, but it had resonated much, and so I wrote it out (one of my hobbies lol). The actual words will follow after the brief questioning I had with self:

Have you ever felt like no matter what you do; you can't seem to get in touch with your HIgherself - some people refer to  Higherself as God communicating with them: Creator Source; Divine Almighty etc. You feel this sense of detachment, because you know what it's like to feel this presence.  And now it's gone!

You feel a sense of emptiness!

Why do I feel this way - or what am I doing wrong?

Am I not spiritual enough?

I came across a lecture / satsang by Mooji which took place in Portugal  this summer.  Here's what  he had to say that could shed some light on this matter:

If You Want To Meet God, You have to disappear!

Not everytime you see a human form means there's someone in there.Not everytime you see a human being's form means that there's a person inside there.  Sometimes there's no person inside there. It's your assumption that puts somebody in there. And it's your understanding that takes everybody out of there too.

Sometimes your understanding is so powerful, that you've taken all the people out of their bodies, somehow - and only the supreme is there. Then let the supreme talk all the rubbish he wants.  But no person can be found.

I told you the story of the saint who is meditating, and found himself at the door of God.  And he knocked on the door.  A voice said "Who is it?".... The saint replied - It is I my Lord! 

The voice said "Go Away, there's no room for two in here!"

The saint feels completely crushed.  He sinks back again into meditation.  There's a fire burning inside.  Fire burning! Fire burning!

Now he cannot meditate.  God has sent him away.  But that sending away is so powerful; so urgent, that he finds himself again at the door. He knocks at the door again; and the voice says - "Who is it?"

The saint replied - "It  is you my Lord!"

"Ahhh... Come in!"

"Come In!"

There's no room for two in this inner place. No room for two!

Either you are there, or God is there. But there's no room for two.

So... How to be only there! With God as God. How do you do this.

We don't know.  And in the not knowing - this is grace itself: how to know what to do what you cannot do.

There's something that is so primal inside of us.  It was there before we learned how to do and how to be. It is there. It is not something that would be achieved. It is something that is so deeply primal inside. But as long as you think you can do something, the delusion continues.  Then you realize; this cannot be done; I cannot do it.

How can I not be I?  And then you're going to find something:  a power that you overlooked.  I don't know how to say this.  They're no books on how this is done.  And maybe it's not done.  I prefer that nobody can do it; than somebody can do it. There's so much greater power that nobody can do it, than if somebody can do it, because it calls you beyond yourself.

It calls you beyond yourself.  How are you going to go beyond yourself!

It brings you to the limits - to the edge of your own mind.

How do you go beyond your mind?

I say you cannot go!

You can only be.

...... I mean; who is there for us? Consciousness or person? Who is there most - consciousness or the person? 


Hope this provides some opening Amir!  There's a lot of information we have at our fingertips, but ever so often I find the need to retreat if I find myself being pulled by the magnetism of information surrounding me; check 'in' before you check 'out.'

Sometimes the answers we are looking for are found in the same place that the questions are originating from - within. One may argue that "all of the answers" are found within; just a matter of becoming aware of this. And that's what's all these tools are for!

Thats a good answer. And the link is after reading that i felt so alone and suicidal. The guy posted the link under one of sevans comments. So i message the guy after reading it. I wanted to understand it more. How light is ruining us. How the only way out is to leave light completely. This guy WANTS TO DIE. ive had suicidal thoughts before. I have an overactive imagination. Im not gonna do it but the thought of it hurts. I just want it to go away. Sometimes i regret ever "waking up" i feel pointless. Hopefully my point comes back soon. Im just gonna let it pass. Truth. Why? Why not just let things be. What is better than what is here. Its getting kind of ridiculous to me. Idk why i even wanted to find it in the first place.
Its amazing how information can alter your mindstate. Its beyond amazing actually. The slightest thing to add and alter your belief messed up my day. Its depressing but fascinating. Thats wierd

So, what happens sometimes when you're learning and consuming spiritual knowledge can be what I sometimes call spiritual indigestion. It happens when you take on a big load of information that challenges most if not all of your deep rooted beliefs that you previously had as your foundation for your psyche. It's important to keep balancing your life as best as you can. Physical exercise and talking with friends and family about non-spiritual subjects can be another great way to take a break and rest up and ground your energy. Remember to eat and take care of your body as a temple. Here are some other insights fromAndrea, a fellow traveler on the way:

When we are heavily engaged in spiritual practice, staying grounded can be challenging. We can divert a little too much of our energy towards the spiritual plane. We begin disconnecting from our physical reality. We may be floating around on a cloud after a great workshop, or feel particularly blissed out after a long meditation session. This “spiritual high” is wonderful – up to a point. We have to remember that we exist here in the physical plane for good reason. Grounding the energy that arises from spiritual practice assists us in utilizing that energy in a practical way. It also prevents the inevitable “crash and burn” that follows prolonged spiritual highs!

Before we get into tips and techniques on becoming and staying grounded, here are some signs that you may be too disconnected from the physical plane:

  • You feel as if you are walking around in a spacey haze.
  • You are scattered and forgetful.
  • You are having trouble connecting to others. Your attention keeps drifting while you are in conversation. You may forget what you were about to say, or lose track in mid-sentence.
  • You avoid practical, necessary tasks such as paying your bills or doing your taxes. You feel resentful at having to bother with these mundane matters.
  • You forget to eat or drink.
  • Taking care of your physical body – showering, shaving, putting on make-up and so forth – seems tedious.
  • In the extreme, you feel out of control, as if the practical aspects of your life have suddenly become unmanageable.
  • Meditating is more interesting than a new episode of “Gray’s Anatomy.” Wait, maybe that’s just me …

Connection to the spiritual plane is a wonderful thing. However, we must not be fooled into thinking that we must lose our connection to our physical existence in order to connect deeply to Spirit. The two are not separate – we must live in both equally!

Becoming and staying grounded is incredibly important if our spiritual evolution is to have an effect on our physical existence. Here are some specific ways you can bring an appropriate amount of your energy back to the physical plane.

  • Work up a sweat. Hard exercise brings your attention back to your physical body. A mere walk will not create the same results. The point is to vigorously engage your body. It’s hard to ignore your physicality when your heart is pounding and your muscles are aching pleasantly.
  • Spend time in nature. Put your feet on bare rock, or walk on some cool, soft grass. Dig your toes into Mother Earth. Hug a tree. Lie on the ground and soak up some sunlight.
  • Bake bread. There is something about kneading dough by hand – touching earthy grains and the rhythm of working the dough – that is profoundly anchoring. Baking bread is an ancient ritual that connects us to the need for physical nurture.
  • Do some gardening – without gloves on. Touch Mother Earth and get some dirt under your fingernails.
  • Take a pottery class. Nothing is more grounding and centering than throwing clay. If you do professional intuitive work or have a strong meditation practice, this is one of the most balancing hobbies you can take up.
  • If you practice yoga, focus on balancing poses such as Tree Pose. Standing on one leg forces us to become more deeply rooted into the ground.
  • Carry around pieces of hematite or onyx. Both stones have grounding qualities.
  • Drink hibiscus tea. Hibiscus stimulates the lower two chakras.
  • Try rubbing grounding essential oils such as patchouli or cedarwood on your ankles.
  • Wear red or eat red foods. Red is the color of the root chakra.
  • Eat root vegetables, such as carrots, parsnips, beets, turnips, sweet potatoes and regular potatoes. Leafy greens such as kale and dandelion are also very grounding.

Staying grounded in our physical reality by no means hinders our connection to the spiritual plane. By staying balanced within both, we can manifest the results of our spiritual practice more powerfully at the physical level of our lives.






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