Ayzik,
Thank you muchly for the innerstanding, indeed, your thoughts and guidance have run with mine,
this was given to me in my meditation, that in itself is the the answer...I have dealt with this illusionary drama before, when i felt these emotions came to me, So last night i started to look for martial art breathing techniques , anything to let go of my emotional reaction. I wish that i could have met you in person, even though i know that we are all intertwined in soul matter anyhow.