In my life I have searched for this path, which would lead me to the rainbow on the distant mountain, the one that is called balance. It gives you the power to spread your wings and to reach higher and ultimately Ascension.
All of us grow up with this yearning that we are not complete; a very large part of us is missing. We get told many things by the grownups out there, but in our hearts we know that is not the truth. In my searching I have walked many paths, some was high paths and some low, and in the end no matter where I went I could NOT find that path I was looking for.
In my dreams I found that path, but no matter how I searched in the physical not one path took me to that place I dreamed of. With each passing year the yearning got louder and it drove me insane that I could not reach past this dark valley to reach the other mountain where the rainbow was sparkling in the sun.
I had no access to the internet and these spiritual sites, so in the end I turned inside myself as I could not find the path out there. In all my soul searching and beating myself senseless I started feeling an inner power, the ME that was missing. The ME that I was yearning for to make me complete.
In the end I found that the only way for me to reach that rainbow would be to walk through this valley I have been avoiding. The dark, rancid place that filled me with so much fear, I knew this path would make me face every single thing I have avoided to deal with in this life and so many others. As I stood there on that ledge looking down into that dark valley I saw someone stand next to me.
I looked at him and I felt his name was Elron, a friend, a guardian, someone I have known a very long time. We stood there a long time and I finally looked at him.
I asked: “Why is this, the only way to reach the rainbow?”
He answered: “To reach that rainbow you have to face your darkest and most scary demons. If you have walked through the valley of the shadow of Death, you will never again fear that evil.”
I swallowed as I felt that what he said is the absolute truth, I knew for me to reach that part I will have to go through death/rebirth 10 times. I will have to leave the life I have made that was not truly mine, and I will have to leap like a lemming onto that dark valley and face every last demon that come for me.
This was how my path started, with that first leap, that fist step. It was the first steps that lead me into a hell I could never have imagined.
Yet if I have a choice today, I will leap of that ledge again.
I learned that there were more out there than many know and understand. There is not just light there is dark as well. There are the physical, the Etheric, the Emotional, the Light and the Spiritual body and a soul. And that to heal your life and yourself you need to heal all of those, merging them one into the other until only one body is left.
At this point I still have only 2 bodies left, I have found that I can merge them halfway and separate them again, so I am not all there yet, though this was what I learned on this path.
All of us are connected by energy, energy that is freely available. Everything on this planet and the universe use this energy. On this planet we forgot that unending supply of energy. We forgot how to use it and how to access it, so in order to have energy we take energy from others.
This is where conflict start, in our day to day lives as well as in relationships. Each of us is raised to compete for energy and attention from our parents. They repeat the patterns of their parents and so the children learn the same.
To start on this path we firstly need to look at our parents, find out the story about your parents, through their lives we can see the influence it had on our life, with new eyes. You start seeing their way of controlling the energy in your family. This is where your interpersonal Ethic’s start.
The way you interact with people, your family, the people around you is the way that you firstly start working on yourself. Your family is the first persons that teach you to become who you are today.
In our world today interpersonal relationships are in a really bad state. In the old teaching it is stated that children are the hope of the future, they should be viewed as they really are, as the next level of evolution. For children to learn to become more than their parents they need a constant basis of energy and unconditional love to reach that. All the old teachings say that it is the worst possible thing to do to children is to drain them from energy, by correcting them according to your image. They must learn what is acceptable in the community and what not, but they still need to be able to explore who they are, through helping them to clear past life issues at a young age.
When children don’t receive enough energy it leads to energy deficiency and cause behavioral patterns that is now called ADD and all sorts of things that is suppressed by medication. Children start to manipulate the energy of their parents by either acting all sorry for themselves, demanding, and hyper active, or sometimes even intimidators.
The old teachings state that children should have at least one dedicated person around (not necessarily a parent) that gives them all the energy they need so that they can learn to be truly centered and balanced within themselves. They learn to stay that way and grow, to become complete in themselves.
This is why they should always be included into conversations, especially conversations about them. We as parents should also not take responsibility for more children than we can give attention to. In the olden days children was cherished by everyone in the family or tribe. They receive energy from their parents and the other members especially the elders. The role of elder in the lives of a family is beyond important.
Children need to be told the truth in every situation, they need to understand the reason their parents sometimes act strange. Problems that affect the family are something children should share in, as they learn from their parents how to deal with such problems. Through our lives we have been told be quiet, go play grownups need to talk. It takes energy from the children, and they would start competing with each other for energy and attention.
Parents withhold the truth from their children as they feel it is too complicated for them to understand. The old teaching stated that all information can always be expressed at the child’s level of understanding. It is just a matter of finding a way to simplify it.
This is why the teachings state that the role of the community, but especially the mother is the most significant in the evolution of any race.
As grown ups we enter into relationships, and mostly our growth stop, why because of addictions. We find someone and fall in love we achieve that blissful euphoric stage of Love we all know so well. Yet mostly it fades and then conflict start, why?
In the start at the beginning when love is all romantic and nice, both individuals give energy to the other voluntarily. It happens without us realizing it. Each person that is in balance and harmony draw energy from the universe, in this way they don’t need to take from other people. Yet, in that euphoric state we start cutting our self off from that universal energy and we start relying on the other person’s energy to feel good. This happen especially if you are spiritually awake, if not you have never learned to draw that energy from the Universal source.
The other person would normally give to you freely as you would give to them freely. But in the end you are both disconnected from the universal energy, so then the power struggle start. They start competing to receive energy from the other person.
In this way they start falling back into the issues they learned as children and it become a tug of war, each using their issues to get energy and attention from the other person. So in the end it become a power struggle which either have both people miserable or the loser miserable. Then their ways normally part.
All this started inside our own families, we compete for energy with siblings and your parents, and we never learn the most important aspect any ONE person should know.
The integration of our opposite sexual side, needed to obtain balance, and the reconnection to the Universal Energy.
This is then the reason we become addicted to our partner as they carry the opposite sexual energy we need. When you are balanced and connected to the universal energy through your higher self and soul, that energy are both male and female. So when you are not connected you only have access to your own sexual energy.
So in order for you to stay in balance inside a relationship you need to integrate the universal energy into yourself through your higher self/ spiritual body down into your physical body. This take time to achieve and if you then prematurely fall in love like happen every single day in this world, you attach yourself to the opposite sex, you end up disconnecting from the Universal energy, and attaching yourself to the opposite energy of that person, thus forming an addiction, that usually end up in a power struggle for energy.
The teachings talk about the Holy trinity or the triangle of love. This is what they described. Look at the Diagram 1 show relationships now.